Jumbled thoughts

I have never done this before so if the content of this post seem confusing it is probably because I really have no clue on where this is going. For many years I was not a pastor, I was a ordained minister who was very happy working on my website, teaching sunday school classes, bringing the sunday evening sermon for my church and sometimes helping other churches when they needed someone to preach for them.

Then, in somewhat chronological order several things happened: My church was burned out, many members left thinking the church was gone for good, vandals broke into what was left of the church and destroyed what they didn't take, my father (who was the pastor) passed away and seemingly overnight my church was reduced to a mere handful of people. To make things even worse the members which remained were either retired or unemployed! With less than a dozen people left I was asked to conduct a business meeting and the church called on me to be their new pastor. My first order of business was to ask for the church to decide if they wanted to disband. A motion was made but defeated, the church wanted to go on.

So now what? The only biblical training I have ever received is from pastor's. The only scripture training I have is from books. My only management training comes from the various jobs I have held and still hold as a bi-vocational pastor.

Things do not look good!