Troubled

I really am in a strange frame of mind today. Church members are falling back into thier old life styles and it appears that nothing I say or do seems to matter. Things have gotten so bad that I have considered calling for the churches disolution but evrytime I think about that or pray about it I get no response in the affirmative from God so I keep hanging in and trusting that God, at least, knows what he is doing even if I don't.

One thing that has me very puzzled is the total lack of response not just from my church but also from all who visit this blog, my website, and my message board. Sometimes it feels like I am a pastor cut-off and completely alone because no pastor, church or even christian brothers and sisters say anything or show any concern about this or any other small church that is in trouble. This kind of burden is very draining both spiritually and emotionally.

Then just when it seems I cannot go any farther I meet a catholic builder who says he will help because it is a house for God. Then I meet another pastor that says he will bring his menfolk over whenever we are ready and they will also help. Now how can this be if God had really decided to close this little church? What is happening when people that could solve this problem overnight are silent while those with almost nothing are willing to commit what they do have?

God in heaven I pray for understanding and guidance. I pray that your will be done to bring honor and glory to your name. And God, I ask for forgiveness where we have failed you and strength to continue in your calling. In the name of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ your Son I pray... Amen...